"I live for the nights that I can't remember, with the people that I won't forget"

I love that lyric. It's from a song called "show me a good time" by drake.

i don't know why i love it so much, but as bad as it sounds, it seems like a good quote to live by.

not the whole "cant remember" part.

but I think you should live for nights with people that you won't forget, you know?

if that makes sense. I think that people should try and spend more time with the people that they know that they won't forget, rather than spending their time with people that don't really matter to them. 

I kind of hate the Christmas season.

everyone is always so rude. People are TERRIBLE during the christmas season.
the minute black friday hits, it's like a switch gets flipped in peoples heads and they're in holiday mode now.
and this "holiday mode" that people go into causes them to be extremely rude, and act as if you're putting them out.
For example, I work drive thru at Ritzy's and somedays we'll get so busy in the store and on drive thru that we'll have people waiting for like 10 minutes on orders, which we can't help.
we can't help that everyone and they're brother decided to come to Ritzy's that day, we just have to try and push orders out as fast as possible. but people don't get that, they seem to think that they're the only customers in the world, and they're all that we have to worry about when, in all honesty, that is SO far from reality it isn't even funny.
I, personally, think that everyone should have to work a fast food job to train them how to treat people NICELY during the holiday season. Cause the one thing I have learned from my job is how to be polite at ALL times, not just when it counts. Like, if I go to target, and my cashier is rude to me, I'll still be nice back at them and tell them to have a good day. No matter how bad they are, or how mean they might be, I ALWAYS try and be nice to them, simply because I know how much I hate customers coming in and being mean to me.
(wow, i got really off topic, haha :D)

Christmas Trees

I don't know if trees really count as a decoration, but I love Christmas trees.
I love them mainly because you can decorate them however you want. You pretty much have complete creative control of the trees, and I love being able to say that I have complete creative control of something because there are very few things you can honestly say that about.
also, it's something that we do as a family. Between busy work and school schedules, we never really have time to see each other, but we ALWAYS make time to decorate the tree.
whether it's on a weekend or after everyone's off work, we always make time to do it. no matter what.

Christmas Presents

so, about 2 years ago i really wanted an xbox 360 for Christmas. I never got it.
and I asked for one again last year and, big surprise, I never got it.
Finally I realized that I wouldn't be getting an xbox for Christmas, so rather than asking for one again this Christmas, i used some of the money that I saved up since I got my job and I bought one myself.
So, though i never got one for Christmas, like I wanted, I ended up getting one anyway, so I'm pretty happy.

Texas

I'm going to Texas on the 11th because it's my grandfather's 80th birthday.
I'm so excited. We're actually doing a lot of cool things.
On Thursday, after we fly down there, we're going to see a band called the B-52's in concert. That's pretty cool, just cause i grew up listening to them. Then on Friday we're going to Katy, Texas to see a replica of all of the Terra-cotta soldiers. and then on Saturday we're going to Houston to go to some kind of festival. and on Sunday we're having this HUGE, formal party for him. it'll be really fun.

"little girl why are you crying, just because the flowers in your garden are dying?

there's so much that you could be doing"
-Kate Nash.
I love this lyric so much.
It speaks to me in so many ways. It's saying
"don't sit and cry just because somethings going wrong, you could fix it if you tried"
and more often than not, people just sit back and watch everything go wrong instead of at least trying to fix it.
It makes me so mad when people are like that.
They expect others to listen to their sad stories and feel bad for them when really, they did nothing to avoid the situation, or at least help it in any way.
No, I will not feel any sympathy for you if you dont try and help yourself.

The Deathly Hallows

I'm totally gonna nerd out on Harry Potter right now.
I can't wait for the 7th movie to come out. I know I'm going to cry so bad. I just want to cry when I see the trailers for it.
and It's not like it's sad, even though it is, but it's just like the movies are coming to an end, and I've grown up with Harry Potter. Like I can seriously quote the entire first movie with a british accent.
I'm going to be really angry if they don't do this movie by the books, like if it's anything like the 4th movie, where they left over half of the good parts out, I will be seriously mad!

blessed are those who can give without remembering and take without forgetting

to me, this quote means that "good" people can give without expecting any in return, and take something without forgetting who gave it to them and appreciating that.
I believe that everyone is out to better themselves, so I don't really know if I believe that it is possible to be like that. But I do believe that that is what the quote is trying to say.

Movie Theatre Floor

one year for halloween, when I was in elementary school, I was a movie theatre floor.
When I tell people this their first reation is a look of confusion, soon followed with "what does that mean?"
well, for my costume, i wore a black sweat shirt and sweat pants with candy and popcorn glued to me.
I also had an empty popcorn bucket glued to my shirt.
I even went as far as painting the bottom of a shoe white then stepping on the shirt, leaving a nasty looking foot print behind.
I was covered in snow caps, skittles, sweet tarts, and even empty candy boxes.
It was by far the cutest home made costume i've ever seen.
It was adorable. I even wont a costume contest at school because of it.
it was awesome!

Silent Hill

I'm not a person who is easily scared at all. However, there is one movie that freaks me out every single time I watch it.
That movie is Silent Hill.
The movie is based on a series of horror video games, in which you are playing as a character trying to navigate their way through the decrepit remains of a town called Silent Hill. The town is full of things you'd only find in your worst nightmares. The first three games are actually on the list of top 10 scariest video games.
Anyway, the movie is scary because you have no idea what is going on through the whole thing.
In the movie, the main character, Rose, is confronted by numerous nightmarish creatures while on her quest to find her daughter who had been lost after they got in a car wreck on their way to Silent hill.
Just the creatures that can be found in the town are horrifying.
They include children that seem to be made of burning ash, zombie-esque nurses that are attracted to light, and terrifying men with pyramid shaped masks covering their heads.
She navigates her way through the horrific town of Silent Hill with only the help of  a police officer named Cybil Bennett. While looking for her child, she uncovers the terrible truth of the town and what happened to it.
the movie is genuinely scary, not gorey. and that's why I love it so much.
it's probably my favorite scary movie ever.
Silent Hill Movie Trailer

The Ritzy's Ghost

Everyone loves Ritzy's.

Everyone knows how good our food is.

Everyone knows how good the ice cream is.

Everyone knows how nice the people are that work there.

But what most people don't know is that Ritzy's is haunted.

One night, I was standing up front by myself,  not a single customer was in the dining roomand all of the other workers were in the back. all of a sudden I heard a male voice whisper "hey!" right into my ear.

I ran back and told my manager about it. The first thing she said was "it's about time you've had an experience"

then she proceeded to tell me about how one night after she had just become one of the managers she was closing by herself, and no one else was in the store, yet she heard a crashing noise from up front. she ran up there as quickly as possible to find all of the pints and quarts had fallen off of the shelf. Shortly after that, one of the other managers came up and asked if we were talking about the ghost. he then told me about the time he was in the office counting money before he left, and he heard the Walk in refrigerator AND freezer door open at the same exact time. He told us he could even hear the fans running in the freezer, that's how far the doors had open. 

Then, the one of the girls I work with told everyone about how she was mopping the tile floor after we were closed one night, and all the doors were closed and locked, yet she still heard the bells on the door jingle as if someone had just opened the door. 

finally, that night, after everyone had shared their ghost stories, I was about to leave, and there was still not a single customer in the restaurant, and I heard the guys' bathroom door close by itself.

halloween night

the sights, the sounds.

the leaves on the ground.

the masks and costumes.

the witches on brooms.

surely they're in for some treats,

but not without tricks, perhaps fake spiders or ticks.

maybe a frightening "boo!"

the sounds, the sights,

all part of the frights

 found on

halloween night.

fall

to me, fall is depressing.
Everything dies, and it gets cold outside.
It's like everything's asleep.
Everything is so dull, it makes me upset.

I love my job

I don't know a single teenager who can honestly say they look forward to going to work.
But I do.
I love everything about my job.
I love the people I work with, I love the managers, I even love working.
My job kind of gives me a  place where I can go and get my mind off things, as weird as that sounds.
But honestly, I love it.
I don't even mind that it's fast food, so I go home smelling like a giant french fry every single night.
It doesn't bother me a bit.

Stand by me.

I really enjoyed the video.
It shows how everyone has different takes on things, yet when you put them together, they could be amazing.
if you have a different take on something than someone else, try and talk about it, see if you can come to an understanding. It is possible, whether you think so or not.
it is possible to come to an understanding with someone who may have a completely different outlook than you.

It's all these ignorant faces that bring this town down

Ignorant people make me so angry.
If you're going to try and prove your point, please make sure you know at least a little bit about it before you start talking.
If you are ignorant about a certain subject, you should not talk about it. It only makes you look stupid and it ticks people off.
There is absolutely no winning for you if you are one of the people that talk about things they have no idea about.
simple as that.
Dont talk. if you cannot educate yourself on the subject, Do not talk.

"Out, baby out, get out of town

baby out, baby out, get out. Out baby out, get out of town. Before it catches up with you, and you cannot withstand"- Kate Nash
I wish I could just leave sometimes. Sometimes working, and going to school gets to be too much. And I wish I could just pack a bag and go somewhere.
Go to Galveston, or San Francisco, or New Orleans.
Anywhere. As long as it's away from this small town, with it's small minded people.
I'm a city girl with big city dreams.
I want out of Owensboro. I know how great it is outside of this town. I know what else there is out there, and I feel bad for the people that are content living their entire lives in one place, never experiencing the world.
I want to live.
I want to take 3 weeks off and backpack through Europe, staying in hostels and little hotels.
I want to take a road trip spanning all the way from the east coast to the west coast.
I want to be able to tell my children stories of all of the amazing places I've been.
I want to live.
I want to laugh.
I want to love.
The people who are content staying in one place, doing the same boring thing for the rest of their lives. Those of the people I feel sorry for.
"I'd like to travel, I want to see India and the pyramids

A whale and that race with all the bicycles in France" -Kate Nash
I want to live a life that I would be proud to tell my grandchildren about.
I want my kids to pass my stories on too. I want them to go to school and tell all their friends about how many cool places their mother has been.
   I'd love to go many places. But I'd love to go to England more than anywhere else. I love everything about England.
My favourite comedians are british, my favourite singers are british, my favourite shows and movies are british.
I SPELL like a british person. I spell Color "Colour" and neighbor "neighbour" and favorite "favourite"
I'd also love to go to France. Sure, I'd like to go to Paris. But More than that, I'd love to go to small cities in france.
I'd love to go anywhere, really. anywhere that's not here.

Birthdays

I love how everyone always assumes that their birthday will be a momentus occasion.
Like, everyone's always like "oh I can't wait for my birthday, I'm gonna be [insert age here]"
but when our birthdays get here, we all realize that we are exactly the same. There is no change. We don't look, act, or think any differently like we all seem to expect.
The only thing that was different about my birthday this year is the fact that my grandparents are in town, and I haven't seen them since I was in 8th grade, since they live in Texas.
If anything, my birthday this year has been worse than any other. I mean
1) I woke up every hour on the hour last night, causing me to wake up at like 7:40 this morning.
2) I had to get dressed in like 10 minutes in order to get to school on time
3) I can't talk to the one person that I actually want to talk to because his dad took his phone away
4) I have an orthodontist appointment after school, and after that, I have to go to work.
Which, I'm not complaining about going to work. cause I love my job. But, I work 4-Close tonight, so... that kind of sucks simply because I don't get to spend my birthday at home, I have to spend it at work, until 10:00.
Some Sweet Sixteen this is.
Oh, well.
It could be worse...

"Friendship doubles joy and halves grief"

Normally, I wouldn't use a prompt to write, because i find that when I am told to write about something, I cant. But, I find this proverb to be especially true, as there have been many times where my friendships have "halved grief" for me.
For example, I've been going through a whole lot of personal issues for the past 6 months. On days that I feel like giving up, I find strength through my friends, and I stop myself from giving up.
"I can't find the words to make it sound unique, but honestly you make me strong"
-Kate Nash
My friends (well, my true friends) helped me realize that with enough support from the people around you, you can get through anything. Through these months, my friends have been nothing but supportive, and it makes everything easier for me.
I love my friends like they're family, especially my best friends Katie Higdon and Kalyn Jones. They're the most supportive, trustworthy people I know. I have no idea what I would do with them. When I feel like I can't deal with someone, or when I have another anxiety attack, they're the first people I go to. Just talking to them makes me feel better instantly.
I'm glad to have such great friends.

keep it real

I've recently realized how fake people are. It makes me sick. Honestly, if someone has a problem, I'd rather they tell me themselves but for some reason, people seem to think it's a good idea to tell everyone ELSE when it's no one else's business.
If someone has a problem with me, they need to tell me. They don't need to tell so-and-so to tell whats-her-face to tell whoever to tell me.
They need to tell me directly. If people would just tell me directly, I wouldn't get angry and I wouldn't go off.
When I have a problem with someone, I make it clear.
I don't act cool to their face, then go and tell everyone else how angry I am.
I tell them directly that I have an issue with something their doing.
I'm not calling anyone out, I'm just being honest.
I'm "keeping it real"
And that's what I think everyone needs to learn to do.

You are here, then you're gone.

Music is one thing I am extremely passionate about. It's impossible to not appreciate music, in my opinion. You don't have to like a song, but you have to appreciate it. I mean, someone put their soul into that song. Someone put emotion into it.
One of my favorite musicians is Conor Oberst. He is, in my opinion, one of the greatest poets of all time. His lyrics are enough to make anyone cry. He puts so much feeling and emotion into his songs, it's amazing. I have literally found myself to be speechless after listening to his songs.
Not only does he put emotion into his lyrics, but his emotions show through in his voice.
I'm going to link my favorite song by him, just so you can understand what I mean because words cannot describe it.
"A Perfect Sonnet"- Bright Eyes
"so I stand in the sun, and I breathe with my lungs. I'm trying to spare me the weight of the truth"
Simply amazing.

I was thinking

There aren't many authors that actually make me think, or better yet, there arent many modern authors who make me think. John Green, however, is one of the few modern authors whose words can actually move me to tears.
He is the author of books like Looking For Alaska and Paper Towns. I think I find his books so moving simply because, yes they are geared toward teenagers, but they also have a deeper meaning behind them. In Looking For Alaska a boy named Pudge meets a girl who goes by the name Alaska. This girl changed his life forever. It's sort of the same effect his books have on me. I go into them thinking a certain way, but when I'm finished, I think something completely different. They change your perspective on things, not in a really significant way, but they change your perspective enough.
He writes stories about kids who aren't popular, kids who aren't super cool, kids who deal with real problems. That is the reason I find him so fascinating. His books are about plain kids, yet he manages to make the books interesting, he makes the messages in the book profound. And that's why he is my favorite author. No, he doesn't write books like The Great Gatsby, or like The House of the Spirits, or basically any other book you'd read typically read in English class (don't get me wrong, those are the kinds of books that I love. High school English classes are like Heaven for me with all of those types of books we read) but I still manage to find his books moving, and that's enough for me. It's odd that I, the girl who reads shakespeare and whose favorite book is The Great Gatsby, would find books like that moving, but John Green writes in a way that is hard to not find moving.