Birthdays

I love how everyone always assumes that their birthday will be a momentus occasion.
Like, everyone's always like "oh I can't wait for my birthday, I'm gonna be [insert age here]"
but when our birthdays get here, we all realize that we are exactly the same. There is no change. We don't look, act, or think any differently like we all seem to expect.
The only thing that was different about my birthday this year is the fact that my grandparents are in town, and I haven't seen them since I was in 8th grade, since they live in Texas.
If anything, my birthday this year has been worse than any other. I mean
1) I woke up every hour on the hour last night, causing me to wake up at like 7:40 this morning.
2) I had to get dressed in like 10 minutes in order to get to school on time
3) I can't talk to the one person that I actually want to talk to because his dad took his phone away
4) I have an orthodontist appointment after school, and after that, I have to go to work.
Which, I'm not complaining about going to work. cause I love my job. But, I work 4-Close tonight, so... that kind of sucks simply because I don't get to spend my birthday at home, I have to spend it at work, until 10:00.
Some Sweet Sixteen this is.
Oh, well.
It could be worse...

"Friendship doubles joy and halves grief"

Normally, I wouldn't use a prompt to write, because i find that when I am told to write about something, I cant. But, I find this proverb to be especially true, as there have been many times where my friendships have "halved grief" for me.
For example, I've been going through a whole lot of personal issues for the past 6 months. On days that I feel like giving up, I find strength through my friends, and I stop myself from giving up.
"I can't find the words to make it sound unique, but honestly you make me strong"
-Kate Nash
My friends (well, my true friends) helped me realize that with enough support from the people around you, you can get through anything. Through these months, my friends have been nothing but supportive, and it makes everything easier for me.
I love my friends like they're family, especially my best friends Katie Higdon and Kalyn Jones. They're the most supportive, trustworthy people I know. I have no idea what I would do with them. When I feel like I can't deal with someone, or when I have another anxiety attack, they're the first people I go to. Just talking to them makes me feel better instantly.
I'm glad to have such great friends.

keep it real

I've recently realized how fake people are. It makes me sick. Honestly, if someone has a problem, I'd rather they tell me themselves but for some reason, people seem to think it's a good idea to tell everyone ELSE when it's no one else's business.
If someone has a problem with me, they need to tell me. They don't need to tell so-and-so to tell whats-her-face to tell whoever to tell me.
They need to tell me directly. If people would just tell me directly, I wouldn't get angry and I wouldn't go off.
When I have a problem with someone, I make it clear.
I don't act cool to their face, then go and tell everyone else how angry I am.
I tell them directly that I have an issue with something their doing.
I'm not calling anyone out, I'm just being honest.
I'm "keeping it real"
And that's what I think everyone needs to learn to do.

You are here, then you're gone.

Music is one thing I am extremely passionate about. It's impossible to not appreciate music, in my opinion. You don't have to like a song, but you have to appreciate it. I mean, someone put their soul into that song. Someone put emotion into it.
One of my favorite musicians is Conor Oberst. He is, in my opinion, one of the greatest poets of all time. His lyrics are enough to make anyone cry. He puts so much feeling and emotion into his songs, it's amazing. I have literally found myself to be speechless after listening to his songs.
Not only does he put emotion into his lyrics, but his emotions show through in his voice.
I'm going to link my favorite song by him, just so you can understand what I mean because words cannot describe it.
"A Perfect Sonnet"- Bright Eyes
"so I stand in the sun, and I breathe with my lungs. I'm trying to spare me the weight of the truth"
Simply amazing.

I was thinking

There aren't many authors that actually make me think, or better yet, there arent many modern authors who make me think. John Green, however, is one of the few modern authors whose words can actually move me to tears.
He is the author of books like Looking For Alaska and Paper Towns. I think I find his books so moving simply because, yes they are geared toward teenagers, but they also have a deeper meaning behind them. In Looking For Alaska a boy named Pudge meets a girl who goes by the name Alaska. This girl changed his life forever. It's sort of the same effect his books have on me. I go into them thinking a certain way, but when I'm finished, I think something completely different. They change your perspective on things, not in a really significant way, but they change your perspective enough.
He writes stories about kids who aren't popular, kids who aren't super cool, kids who deal with real problems. That is the reason I find him so fascinating. His books are about plain kids, yet he manages to make the books interesting, he makes the messages in the book profound. And that's why he is my favorite author. No, he doesn't write books like The Great Gatsby, or like The House of the Spirits, or basically any other book you'd read typically read in English class (don't get me wrong, those are the kinds of books that I love. High school English classes are like Heaven for me with all of those types of books we read) but I still manage to find his books moving, and that's enough for me. It's odd that I, the girl who reads shakespeare and whose favorite book is The Great Gatsby, would find books like that moving, but John Green writes in a way that is hard to not find moving.